The first and most obvious being that I hate to see my ordinarily energetic children down and out. I hate to see that glint in their eyes fade into gloss.
The second reason is because I have anxiety over nothing so when there is something, the anxiety becomes all the more real. I hate thinking about the worst case scenario but I haven't quite figured out how to avoid it.
The third reason is because I get NOTHING done around the house. I hate that this is one of the big ones but it just makes my life miserable. I hate getting behind because it's just so hard to get back "on top."
Claire has been sick, pink eye, ring worm, two year old molars, (two year old tantrums)! Audrey has been coughing with a runny nose and watery eyes for 10 days. What sounds like a typical cold on the surface may not be quite as innocent as it seems. Audrey has been diagnosed with asthma. I say that loosely because she has not seen a specialist or an allergist yet. Looking back into Audrey's life this would make a lot of sense.
Unfortunately, I am not sure what to blame for this recent flare up, the cold, or the DOG! I hate to think that it is the dog because I hate to think that we would have to get rid of him. I have always had terrible allergies to animals and I am doing just fine with him. We tried to get a breed that would be hypoallergenic. She does get a seasonal cough and cold that tends to linger so I am trying not to panic but I can't get rid of this looming feeling that
it. could. be. the. dog.
So, let's just not go there yet.
I've lost track of what number I am on but I came up with another one, I hate it because my "me time" vanishes! Bedtime gets pushed later and later and the kids shows are on an endless loop. I start to feel claustrophobic.
I spent the evening in the Emergency care center with Claire. She had "nursemaids elbow" from Adam trying to pull her up on the bed. It was very painful for her and amazingly after it was "put back into place" she was instantly pain free! The bad news is, they charged me 75 for the visit and 110 for the "adjustment." Can you believe that!! I thought that's what I was paying 75 dollars for! I was going to go out with Brittany for her Birthday tonight but obviously the Universe had other plans.
So, groundhog day?
I think yes.
Every day is groundhog day around here. In the middle of my pity party on Spring Cypress road heading toward highway 290, I had a thought. Isn't this why I stay home after all? I stay home to take care of sick babies, to rush them to the emergency care unit, to wipe noses, to hold little hands, and wipe little faces. I stay home to research asthma and allergies and ring worm (thanks to google). I stay home to make dinner and do homework and stay up hour after hour listening to kids shows so that my kids will know that they are loved. I stay home so that my kids will grow up with a sense of identity, self worth, and confidence.
What could be the icing on the cake tonight you ask? James just said, " I think I'm getting what Audrey has." GREAT!
We have gotten SO bad at our friendship! Thank goodness for blogging. We can still keep in touch when life says otherwise.
ReplyDeleteI still have your book. I know, for shame. I was not going to keep it this long! There have been times I've been on 249 and wished I had it in the car. We are long overdue on getting together...but let's all be healthy before we do;)
I hope you can keep the dog, though, I am having a hard time picturing you with a dog.
Oh Nic! I had no idea you were going through all of this "sick" stuff. I'm so sorry. Being a mom is just plain exhausting! I really hope that Audrey isn't allergic to the dog...and I hate that your little athlete appears to have asthma. Jess used to have that "elbow" problem all the time. After one doctor visit, Brock learned how to put it back in place for her. That saved us a lot of money. Try to find some peace today.
ReplyDeleteOh shoot! Now that is a day! I just love you and am hoping for a much better WEEK for you!
ReplyDeleteBut Rachel and Adam are ok, right?
ReplyDeleteI had no idea that my arm used to pop out of place and that my dad used to pop it back in place. Ew.
The funny thing is, even when I read about all this tough stuff you've gone through this week, I still can't wait to follow the example of my oldest cousin and raise a family! You're a great mom and role model. Seriously. :)