Rachel's Foot

Yesterday we went to the doctor to get the cast removed and were able to see Rachel's foot for the first time. I have been having a really hard time with it. I know that it will look better with time. I know that we are so fortunate that things have gone so well. The doctors were able to remove all of the cancer and that is what is important. However, it has been hard for me to see this physical manifestation of the affects this disease has had on my sweet little Rachel. It was awful for her to see it yesterday. She was understandably very upset, as was I. Rachel has an amazing ability to confront things head on. I was trying to hug her and hide her eyes so that she wouldn't have to look at it anymore until they got the wrapping back on. She pushed me away and very firmly said, "I'm looking at it!" Her strength and her will is amazing to me. Later on in the car she said, " I didn't want to get my cast off because I knew it was gonna look like that!" I keep reminding myself that it is just a foot! It is on the very bottom of her foot - there are not too many places that would be less noticeable than that. But, the vision of what it looked like yesterday kept me up last night. I know that I will get used to it and so will she. We are so lucky! I see people in there that have had to have their entire limb removed. We are so lucky. I really am so grateful for the outcome . . . but my heart still hurts over the consequences.